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12 Sept 1987.
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Monday, March 12, 2007

here i am in the i-net rm at this time of the night. I shouldn't be here but here i am. hahaz. Today was a pretty slack day. Spent half a day in camp doing this and that and the other half at The Civil Service Club @ Bukit Batok. Nice place there, it's like a mini clubhouse and a mini jurong swimming complex. just that it's too family-like to be nicer.lolx Took part in this G2 bowling comp today and achieved an all time High score of 177!!. hahaz. quite proud of myself. In the end our team came in 2nd overall!!! Not bad considering half of us are noobs. lolx. After that there was this dinner and there were games, singing and stuff.. normal stuff.. Came back to camp soon after. These week going to be a slow paced one cause troopers and commanders mainly not around. All gone for parade rehearsal. hahaz.

Anyway i'm feeling confused. I do not know what's happening anymore even after the explanation. i just feel so weird and empty when ya told me whats happening. this feeling of coldness seemed to overwhelm me as well. it's just sad. but the love is still strong. and i'll wait, i'll wait. im confused.

Also, i came to this conclusion that it's almost impossible to make gd friends when one comes out to work. Just serving my country now as an officer i can understand why and see some of the mechanics behind everything. Everyone's commitments are just too different and as a small fish in a lake, the waves i make are too small to make any difference.And when money's involved(i.e. work performance etc), things always seem to be in tension. A simple story of borrowing things can turn out to have arrows being shot and deflected all over the place(see the movie 'Just follow law'[pun included]). Oh well, i guess that's the working world. I've been psycho-ed to sign on by my OC. And he actually worked in getting me to do a lil more research. But eventually despite the benefits, i feel that i can't stand working in an environment and having the connotation of being in the SAF bestowed upon me. Hence my answer back to my OC was " cannot la Sir"

Cant wait to go for course soon.Apr to May. No need to bother bout Bn stuff.. just need to focus on the course. think it'll be mentally tough but least im freed from certain responsibilities. Can take this time to rest. Will miss my guys though. haha. They're such gd pple. poor elaine though. She'll be the only one left and getting all the work from the top.But she's regular too. hahaz.must earn her pay. crap. im talking crap. getting tired. good night world.

What a confusing entry.

hendric danced away @
11:19 PM

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